January 23, 2017

Day 30 – Perspective

Someone recently said to me, “As a parent, this is your worst nightmare, losing a child.” And they are correct. But I come from a positive outlook on life and I am a survivor and can’t be anything other than what I am. Sydney knows this about me and I believe she is counting on it. Some people have asked, “Does this test that foundation”? Yes indeed, and especially on certain days but then I think of all the beautiful memories, laughs, smiles…all the incredible quality time we shared and the way she would want me to approach moving forward and I find my way through.

Nothing anyone can say or do at this point can ever come close to hurting this deeply. SO AGAIN, I SAY TO ALL, please don’t fade away because you don’t know what to say or how to say it. The love I have for Sydney will continue to strengthen as each day passes and while her physical presence is deeply missed, I find comfort knowing and feeling her with me every minute of every day. THE BOND WILL NEVER BE BROKEN. She would want me to go on and be strong, carry out the work that I do, adding her flare and voice and even her approach from time to time (watch out!!).

Perhaps this perspective will help those of you that struggle. Your love, fun memories, support and tears help me, Aubrey, Kevin, Ken and Chloe heal as much as they help you heal. Please always remember and always feel invited to share….don’t run from tears. Remember….no regrets.

Here is a beautiful Buddhist quote that resonates with me…

“what the caterpillar perceives as the end,

to the butterfly is just the beginning.”

Today I celebrate my butterfly and Angel…

Much love…