I am still wrapping my head around the fact that she isn’t going to come through the front door at any moment…its’ just so crazy and surreal. I mean I know its all real but its only been 253 days and yet its been 253 days already. So many different ways to feel it, see it, live it, express it and unfortunately embrace it. I understand to be able to get back into life and this new reality I have to allow and embrace the pain...

Its so hard to imagine these past 212 days and how I, we, all of us have found our ways through, since the loss of Sydney. I am absolutely 100% sure that each of us has had hard, emotional days and moments. Sometimes I still am unable to look at her picture because it makes my cry. Other days the pictures provide me with an inner strength. I no longer get upset with myself for these feelings, I simply allow them to flow as they need to and then...

We have been informed the criminal trial date has been set for the week of December 5th, 2017. With that, I have once again been reorganizing (for lack of a better word) where I stand on things. My values and beliefs have definitely been questioned through this process, as would any mother. I believe in choice and consequence. Sydney made a choice to trust in the defendant and the consequence was her life. The defendant made a choice to violate...

6 months….today is 6 months since we lost our beautiful Sydney. Its just so hard to imagine the time without her and how we made it this far. She had such an amazing way of intoxicating us with her love, joy and innocence.But we all find our way of moving forward in this life, carrying her in our hearts and soul…always remembering what she means to us. I am grateful for the daily reminders of her incredibly unique and special, sometimes...

Sydney’s Character Wall Album…..is complete!!!! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH TO ALL OF YOU THAT PARTICIPATED AND SHARED A LITTLE ABOUT WHAT SHE MEANT TO YOU OR WHAT YOU WILL YOU MISS ABOUT THIS LOVELY JEWEL!! I will deliver the album this week so those that represent her FEEL her essence and all she was in life! I love you all and will forever by...

Day 151 First, before my story, I would like to thank everyone for allowing me to share and being so unconditional with me through this time in my life. I would like to believe that I am a strong person and I find the light amongst the dark. But knowing that I am not alone, my family and friends stand with me through this time (and listen to me sometimes ramble) has helped me through the moments I doubted my strength and myself. Thank you all...